In my experience and my opinion, attitudes are the hardest thing to change. Lifestyle change, yep done that, diet change yep done that too. But when you try to change your attitude, you see it more clearly. I have always had a negative attitude, that way I would stop getting let down. “Hope for the best, but prepare for the worst” was my daily motto. I have now seen the error of my ways, my new motto is “Pray for the best, and have faith in what you receive”. But in this transition I have found that not only did I always have a negative outlook, but over the years I have also surrounded myself with others who also shared this outlook. Now that I am trying to become more positive it has been a hard look in the mirror, and I do not like what I see. I have found new faith in my life that I have never experienced before and it is hard to enjoy because of this life I have created for myself over the years. I will do the only thing that anyone can do when they don’t know what to do and pray about this. This is a hard lesson in we are what preach. And when you start believing in something different it takes a lot to get to where you want to be.