So I thought about it…. and I am done!

Well I am over it. I am done with my negative: self talk and talk of others, self pity and most important I am done with other’s opinions of me. Well not you of course :). I have spent too many sleepless nights and too much time in my head about some things, and not enough time on my positives. I am a true believer that you can only be a good as you let yourself be. If I spend any more time worrying about things or people outside of my immediate family than I am wasting my time, my breath, and most of all I am missing out on precious memories.

So thank you Lord for my blessings, and thank you Lord most of all for my husband and our handsome amazing boys!

I also have to thank the Lord for my obstacles and past road traveled before I was feeling so blessed. This may sound crazy to some, to be thankful for hard times, to be thankful for the storms in our lives might sound crazy. If we can not look through the clouds and see the sun then we are not living right. If you are in a tunnel and can not see the end, that is human, but being able to know that there is an end is having faith. Now knowing you should have faith and saying that you have faith are completely different then living with faith. Living with faith is to live with your eyes wide open and to be open to all possibilities. Just because we have a certain plan or road map for our own lives does mean that everything will go our way. With that being said we need to take these detours with stride and to know that everything will be alright.

Now back to why I am thankful for hard times, for when I was going through my hard times I did not have any faith I saw no light at the end of the tunnel. I will only say hard times (those times are for another time) to shorten my story. Then I learned the error of my ways and now I am now a stronger person, I now know that there is a light and that only I can dim it, which would be foolish, but for me stressing and carrying on about some trivial things and people in my life is only dimming my light. I have been worrying myself to almost a destructive point in my life. Like I said at the beginning I am done with that.

I remember I do have faith, I do have trust in GOD that if I am in any situation this very day or month that I will get through it! I will get through it stronger than I was before, now I can not be sure that others will get through it with me. But when it comes to faith and God we know that he knows best and I believe that with all my heart.

So please do not be as I was, do not be foolish to take life for granted and to think that we have precious time to waste on foolish people or objects. Life is too short; however I do look forward to my day with Jesus, but right now in this moment, I look forward to my days with my children and to spend time with people whom I love and that love me too.

James 5:7-10
“Be patient, therefore, brothers, until the coming of the Lord. See how the farmer waits for the precious fruit of the earth, being patient about it, until it receives the early and late rains. You also, be patient. Establish your hearts, for the coming of the Lord is at hand. Do not grumble against one another, brothers, so that you may not be judged; behold, the Judge is standing at the door.”

This is what I needed to hear, to get a straight head on for another week.
Thank you for letting me share…


There is nothing in this world that you can truly do anything about,
the only thing you can attempt to control is your own life.
But with that said, that is a false statement, you can not control your own life
nor can you control anyone else’s
We are all ants on God’s Planet
We are all His soldiers, His chess pieces
But this is also only if we allow this be true.
The only way you can remotely try to control your own destiny is if you give your heart to the Lord.
The only way you can possibly know for sure that your life will truly have meaning, is if you willingly give over control.
Give your heart and soul to God, the One, that could sacrifice his one and only flesh child,
for our insecurities, for our selfishness, and for our sin, for us to LIVE.

We can not live with regrets, we can live with life lessons
We can not live with sympathy, we can live with empathy
We can not live with selfishness, we can live with selflessness
We can not live for ourselves, we can live for others
We can not live with hate in our heart, we can live with love in our heart
We can not truly live with any darkness, We have to let the light in!

I am no preacher, no historian, not even a Sunday school teacher,
I am merely a person who has lived this.
I am a believer.
I am a Christian.

I have seen, and I am the living, before and after billboard.
I prefer the After! I prefer the life that I let God take the lead.
I am a weak human that can fall to my weaknesses, but with the Lord’s help I can be strong.

I am not writing this to try to “save” you. I am writing this to say that I am. If I can make one little difference to someone, somewhere, than maybe I have done something positive.
I am still searching for my path, for my purpose.
I have always enjoyed writing, I thought I had hit a brick wall on emotions, when my life started to come together.
Darkness was always easier to convey, but now that I am ridding myself of the darkness, I have found joy in sharing my positive thoughts.

Thank you for letting me share