So I thought about it…. and I am done!

Well I am over it. I am done with my negative: self talk and talk of others, self pity and most important I am done with other’s opinions of me. Well not you of course :). I have spent too many sleepless nights and too much time in my head about some things, and not enough time on my positives. I am a true believer that you can only be a good as you let yourself be. If I spend any more time worrying about things or people outside of my immediate family than I am wasting my time, my breath, and most of all I am missing out on precious memories.

So thank you Lord for my blessings, and thank you Lord most of all for my husband and our handsome amazing boys!

I also have to thank the Lord for my obstacles and past road traveled before I was feeling so blessed. This may sound crazy to some, to be thankful for hard times, to be thankful for the storms in our lives might sound crazy. If we can not look through the clouds and see the sun then we are not living right. If you are in a tunnel and can not see the end, that is human, but being able to know that there is an end is having faith. Now knowing you should have faith and saying that you have faith are completely different then living with faith. Living with faith is to live with your eyes wide open and to be open to all possibilities. Just because we have a certain plan or road map for our own lives does mean that everything will go our way. With that being said we need to take these detours with stride and to know that everything will be alright.

Now back to why I am thankful for hard times, for when I was going through my hard times I did not have any faith I saw no light at the end of the tunnel. I will only say hard times (those times are for another time) to shorten my story. Then I learned the error of my ways and now I am now a stronger person, I now know that there is a light and that only I can dim it, which would be foolish, but for me stressing and carrying on about some trivial things and people in my life is only dimming my light. I have been worrying myself to almost a destructive point in my life. Like I said at the beginning I am done with that.

I remember I do have faith, I do have trust in GOD that if I am in any situation this very day or month that I will get through it! I will get through it stronger than I was before, now I can not be sure that others will get through it with me. But when it comes to faith and God we know that he knows best and I believe that with all my heart.

So please do not be as I was, do not be foolish to take life for granted and to think that we have precious time to waste on foolish people or objects. Life is too short; however I do look forward to my day with Jesus, but right now in this moment, I look forward to my days with my children and to spend time with people whom I love and that love me too.

James 5:7-10
“Be patient, therefore, brothers, until the coming of the Lord. See how the farmer waits for the precious fruit of the earth, being patient about it, until it receives the early and late rains. You also, be patient. Establish your hearts, for the coming of the Lord is at hand. Do not grumble against one another, brothers, so that you may not be judged; behold, the Judge is standing at the door.”

This is what I needed to hear, to get a straight head on for another week.
Thank you for letting me share…

Self Worth

I may be mistaken but from this title I would think that “self worth” would be determined by the “self”.  However I know that, that is wrong. With this day and age people are determine to measure their self worth by how many likes or retweets they get, or comments, or how many so called friends they have on their social media pages. Granted that these “friends” they do not have to personally know or to have actually met the “friend”.

With this said this drives me absolutely crazy……   I have few friends and this is probably why. But do I really have to see a picture every time you bathe your “adorbs” dog,  a picture of every time you cut your kids hair,  add a new flower to over compensating yard, or get one thing from your awesomely awesome garden, which is awesome by the way. Maybe I am wrong but I just do not need to post about every teeny tiny accomplishment.

Do not even get me started about “selfies” oh my.  If you have not heard that song, google it. It is so true. Beware I think it may have a few bad words though. Oh my goodness do you have that one or two friends that when you go to your face book feed you have to see five different face shots from them from that day, each and every day.  It is like they need to valuated by the number of likes they get for that picture. Which I will not like them. I may be a bit more humble, but when I look at my photo album or any pictures I have taken, I do not see myself. I find that I like what I am seeing outside of the mirror. I am not ugly or so insecure that I do not want to see a picture of myself, but I am not so self- centered that, I am all I want to see. I would rather look at my handsome husband, or amazing children which I do not plaster pictures of them, maybe I am just selfish because I do not share them with the world. I am just a private person, and I personally know I am blessed, I do not need others to tell me I am. I know one person who was/is always posting about how amazing and awesome her life and her husband are, that it sound to me either she is going to take the highest bidder when she sells them, or that maybe just maybe she is trying to convince herself. I would go with the latter.

Now ask your self a question, are you one of these annoying self centered people? One of these people who has to feel liked by how many likes your get on a witty comment, or to feel pretty by how likes you can get on a selfie, or special because someone you do not even know retweets or shares your article or status.

If you are guilty of this, and are not self centered, but actually determine how much you are worth or how liked you are. Please stop, please look at a real friend, in their physical presence and enjoy your life. If you do not have any friends, then make one, say hello to a actual living breathing person, standing right in front of you. And is this kind of the same thing? With me venting to people I have never really met or never will really know. (But in my defense, my blog is named free therapy).

What really gets to me, are the kids who lock and shut themselves away to play on this technology. But I will save that for a later date.

Now leave comments, tell me I am the only one who thinks like this, or tell me I am not.