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Losing weight is a long hard road. It’s almost addictive, never mind it is addictive to stand on scale. What is hard is when the needle stops or when the numbers show and there is no decrease on weight, it is very disappointing. Something even worse is if the number goes up, OMG I will cry and whine and then finally pull myself together. That is when I personally realized why you should not weigh yourself every single day, because of water retention and from other types of changes with your weight.
It has been really slow it’s been six months, so five pounds per month. I’ve heard that if you lose it slowly it has a better chance of staying off. That is what I have been telling myself anyway.
I am not on a fad diet or crazy intense exercise, obviously since I would have had more progress. But what I am doing is a lifestyle change. I have changed my diet I stopped eating meat, I said it wasn’t a fad diet, but as soon as I stopped I realized just how popular it is to be a vegetarian. Maybe I shouldn’t say this out loud but I didn’t stop for selfless reasons or humanitarian reasons, I was just sick of it, I could not think of any I wanted to eat. I did remember the little girl in who wanted to be a vegetarian because of the humanitarian reasons. You know the time when you are eating dinner and you have to come to terms that your food really did come from a real life (past tense) animal.
I have become quite a quitter lately, first it was drugs, and then years later I gave up medicine that the doctor prescribed me, that in fact I believe took place of the illegal drugs I had used, then a couple years later I finally gave up smoking, and I will tell you that was the hardest to give up. More recently I gave up eating meat, I also cut back on soda, maybe one or two a week, I like the Lipton green tea citrus instead of soda. I have also given up beer and maybe I’ll have a glass of wine when we go out for dinner. With all these things that I have quit I have never felt healthier.
For me, I am trying to live forever. I want to be healthy so I can live as long as God will allow and not let it be for my shortcomings that I pass away. I can say that I have not always felt this way, when I was younger I didn’t want to make it past thirty. Well now I am thirty and I really hope that my stupidity and recklessness of being a stupid rebellious teen and young adult did not punch my ticket early. I have children I want to see get married and have children of their own, and a husband that I want to grow old with.
Young adult and kids if you do not like yourself now, please do not make choices that can affect your future, for you may be someone you actually like in the future.